Time was extremely wrong. So wrong. Now that I am alone, I started to see things way more clear than before. People said dont wait for the right time, make it! So I did. Once I did, I thought it will be different. I thought it will work out this time. I have the intention to fix stuffs and continue what we have suspended few years back. But hence I found out all the situation has changed, including you. It broke my heart so much to see that you kinda gave up on me... this time. Again. I thought this is our time, I thought this is our second chance. But no its not.. i will forever miss you. From the very first time I know you were the one whom I should fighting for, instead of him. I let go of him and hoping that I could continue my journey with you. Few years back I waited so long but you gave me no clue whether should I wait or not. But at the end, its always you.. its always been you.  Stupid me i thought this will be our time. Now I understand second chances are not always mean to work.

Whatever It Takes - Lifehouse

A strangled smile fell from your face
What kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes

She said if we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see
She said like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You've gotta love yourself if you can ever love me

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together

I know you deserve much better
Remember the time I told you the way that I felt
And that I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes

I let you down. Again.

Ini pertama kalinya gue menyia-byiakan orang dalam hidup gue.. disaat dulu orang lain hang selalu gue banggakan di depan temen temen gue yang aslinya dia bener bener zero.. gue menyianyiakan lo. Lagi. Maafin gue. Gue rasa pun gue ngerti apa artinya cinta itu buta. Tapi sayangnya, baru kemarin ge kejebak cinta yang salah. Yang gak seharusnya gue bukakan pintu buat org lain.. selain lo. Dengan sombongnya gue bener bener ngacangin lo. Gue tau semua temen temen gue bener bener prefer lo daripada dia. Tapi gue emg terlalu bodoh menyangkal semua itu. 

Dan sekarang, selepas dia pergi, gue baru sadar.. memang seharusnya lo yang gue perjuangkan, bukan dia. Dia yang nyakitin gue. Sebelumnya pun gue selalu punya impression yang baik ke lo. Sebelum sama dia pun gue selalu kagum karena kepribadian lo. Tapi gue cuman gak ngerti. Kenapa dulu lo dateng di waktu yang salah, selagi gue lagi sama orang yang salah? Dan sekarang gue udah sendiri, gue merasa.. ga pantes buat ngarep sama lo. Ya karena dulu gue udh menyianyiakan lo. Gue gaktau apa yang sebenernya lo rasain sama gue. Tapi kalau gue punya kesempatan sekali lagi, gue pengen kenal lo lebih jauh lagi. Kalau kalo ini waktu gue yang bener, gue pengen senuanya work out. Seandainya kita emg gaada di suratan takdir, atleast gue pengen kenal lebih jauh. Gue pengen tau apa asumsi gue selama ini bener atau ga terhadap lo. 

Sekali lagi maafin gue yang udah menyianyiakan lo. Gue emg bodoh.. dan sekarang gue merasa ga pantes untuk berharap sama lo, meskipun nyatanya gue masih gatau apa yang lo rasain terhadap gue. Maafin gue.

Malem ini gagal sudah rencana gue utk skripsian. Suasana hati lg ga karuan. Padahal dari tadi sore bener2 semangat lanjutin bab 2. Padahal td lagi ngantuk banget. Entah kenapa, gue masih kepikiran tu orang. Padahal udh punya cewe lagi, dan begonya gue masih mikirin... bego banget gak sih niki?:( kadang gue bingung apa harus gue block semua kontaknya. Tapi kalo nge block kesannya kaya dia tuh berharga bgt  dan susah dilupain sampe2 gue harus block dia. There are some nights dimana gue sedih, merenung sendiri, mikirin kenapa gue melakukan hal ini, sendirian, sedangkan dia udh bahagia sama yg lain. Meskipun dia udh punya cewe pernah beberapa kali dia ngontak gue duluan sekedar basa basi dan tanya kabar. Tapi semenjak gue tau dia punya cewe, gue ga pernah ngontak duluan. Dia yg bilang dia akan selalu berusaha agar kita ttp keep in touch even misal ceweknya itu nggak suka. Tapi buat apa deh? Kenapa dia ngomong kayak gitu ke gue. Bukannya gue geer apa gimana. Deep inside gue gakmau berhubungan sama dia lagi, when its over then its over. Ada juga waktunya dia sedih dia ngontak gue, nangis di depan gue di video call.. buat apa sih? Begonya gue, gue belom pernah bisa me reject telepon dia. Bukannya gue antusias atau gimana, gue jawab telepon dia ya.. emg karena gue biasa biasa aja.

Ada juga waktu dimana gue bener bener galauu banget nangis semaleman dan gakbisa tidur. Alhasil, ambruk badan. Bukan gue yang mau.. dan bukan berarti hal ini sering terjadi di gue, kadang2 aja. Fyi semenjak itu gue selalu berusaha utk menyibukkan diri dg revisian skripsi. Harusnya sih gue udh selesai.. tapi beberapa bulan lalu gatau knp, gue merasa bener2 gabisa pindah setelah gue putus.. setelah putus memang kita masih jaga komunikasi, and stupid me, gue pikir dia lakuin semua itu... karena dia masih care. Hence I found out, kayak sambil menyelam minum air gitu, dia sambil cari cewe jg, sambil tetep kontakan sama gue.

Jahat... emang jahat bgt.. gue kadang benci sma diri sendiri yang gabisa tegas dan kasih boubdaries yang jelas antara gue dan dia. Baru semenjak dia punya cewe baru, gue sadar se sadar sadarnya, dan bener bener stop kontakan sama dia (atleast at my side somehow he tried to text me when hes lonely)

I have to make more boundaries. Dari hati yang paling dalam pun ga bisa dipungkiri... gue masih ngerasa sakit bayangin dia bahagia sama orang lain.. but no bukan berarti gue low self esteem. Gue tau gue lebih baik. He's the loser. 

Nothing - The Script

Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying, trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many, I know that I'm never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
They all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
So I dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing

So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if I faced her face, that she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
So I dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing (nothing, nothing)

She said nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Oh, sometimes love's intoxicating
Oh, you're coming down, your hands are shaking
When you realize, there's no one waiting

Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
So I dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing (nothing, nothing)

She said nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing)

Nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing

For my old crush whom I never had a chance to admit my feelings

Dear my old crush,

How are you? Its been a while since the last time I saw you in high school. Honestly I am pretty shy to admit this. But high school was the place where the first time I saw you, as my junior.

I dont really remember in what date, but the first time I saw you like when I was in 11th garde, meanwhile you were still in a freshman year. I know. I was familiar with your face bcs basically we were in the same elementary school too, but then I would never think you will enroll into the same highschool as me. I remember you were pretty popular in elementary school bcs youre mixed:)) hihi. And now, you were here.

I never had a crush on someone who is younger than me before, so you probably the first one. You may not remember me or even my name. But I remember we joined the same student council. In first year,  I know, slightly you became famous because I have to admit this, you are very attractive. Wuth your braces on (in that time, lol). Eventhough I never had a chance to talk to you, I know you are a good person and I know you have a good personality. Not only outside but from inside too.

I remember that all of popular students on my batch also used to talk to you. Especially during the student orientation, whoah.. During that week I feel like, emotionally tortured maybe? Bcs I had no one to talk to in that week, probably bcs I dont talk to those ppopular students on my batch either. You were very talktative, polite, and incredibly smart. I observed you.

Thats pretty much stuffs I like about you, I mean, I really liked you. You were the ideal one. Youre not only attractive from outside, but also from inside. I know you really love your parents, I know you would do anything for them. And I know I was not the only girl who had crush on you, probably bunches...

I was dying to get any of your contact, BBM, twitter. But I had your BBM pin so I encouraged myself to add yours. I didn't expect that you would accepted me. I was pretty aware about yuor updates. Once I realized one of your friend pranked you, sending a broadcast message, which is written 'I actually like you for quite long time' Heck I thought it was real! Hahahah..

I knew you dated some girls (probably) during in high school, I also realized when you joined the model agency. Actually you really amazed me with your achievement. So I also knew that you were surrounded by alot of girls in hat model agency, which make me unconfident.. I mean who the heck am I, I was really nothing. I wasnt popular, people barely know/talk to me. I wasnt that smart, tho.

And I remember the first time I talked to you, was the day that I was being a servant in high school canteen, you bought a fried rice. And the second time was during the student orientation, you ask me something (honestly I forgot about what it was), but then I stupidly answered with 'I dont really know about that' in our school's basketball court. And thats all.

And yeah, I was falling for you as my crush for about 2 years. I just wished you know about my feelings towards you. I just want you to know because I realized youre in 2 years relationship with your girlfriend. I wish I had a courage to talk to you as normal friends. I wish, I was confident enough about myself, I wish I was being an open person to everyone.

Thats all I wanted to say to you, I am sorry if im being pretty cheesy, hihi. Goodluck for your life, I really admire you as a human being, I am really amazed on how you achieved all your achievement, and I adore your personality. Up till now.

GK.

David Archuleta - Touch My Hand

Saw you from the distance
Saw you from the stage
Something 'bout the look in your eyes
Something 'bout your beautiful face
In a sea of people
There was only you
I never knew what this song was about
But suddenly now I do

Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again

I see the sparkle of a million flashlights
I wonder why all the stars
But the one that's shining out so bright
Is the one right where you are

Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again

Saw you from the distance
Saw you from the stage
Something 'bout the look in your eyes
Something 'bout your beautiful face,

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again

Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand (I'll never get the chance again)
Reach out as far as you can (I'll never get the chance again)
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand
Yeah, yeah

Skin Care/Beauty Product List

Hi guys, kali ini gue bakal ceritain apa aja skincare/beauty prodcut yg gue pake sehari-hari. jadi Sebenernya gue cuma pake produk dari drugstrore sih rata-rata, jarang banget pake produk yg high-end gitu, maklum gue masih mahasiswa.

Terus, gue juga baru ake produk-produk ini selama setahun terakhir gitu, kalo beberapa semester lalu pake sih tapi paling ya ga sebanyak sekarang soalnya gue males, hehe. Tahun ini gue berusaha mejadi 'cewek' lagi. Cussss~

Masker/Scrub

- St. Ives Apricott Scrub Blemish Control (Travel Size)

Ini juga baru gue coba seminggu terakhir, soalnya gue negrasa muka gue kusem banget (plus gue ga suka makan sayur+olah raga). Trus gue baru mikir gitu, ih kusem banget ya muka gue. Dulu sempet pake scrub yang lain tp ga begitu ngaruh di gue. Nah abos itu gue search aja kan produk yg bisa dipake untuk mengurangi kekusaman di kulit, dan nemulah gue  si St. Ives ini. First impression gue sih, abis kita pake, bener bener ajdi alus kulit kita, Trus butiran pasirnya emang rada gede-gede jadi kalo di gue rada sakit gitu. Tapi itulah soalnya St. Ives ini buat deep cleansing gitu kan, jadi gue ga masalah. Oiaya, gue beli yang travel size soalnya gue baru pertama kali nyoba, takut ga cocok apa gimana gitu. Seminggu leh sergue pake 3-4 kali, gaboleh sering2 soalnya nanti kulitnya kering.

- Freeman Lemon and Mint Mask

Sebenernya sih ini bukan punya gw, aslinya punya adek gw, tapi karena dia ga cocok yaudah deh buat gue aja. Kenapa kita pilih yg lemon? Soalnya kalo yg gue baca sih bisa ngempesin/meredakan jerawat gitu. Nah pas bgt muka gue ada bekas jerawat. Baunya enaaaak bgt, seger parah, pas diaplikasiin ke muka jadi kalem bawaannya. Teksturnya juga kaya clay mask yg rada lengket gitu, ga cair kaya krim, jadi kalo diaplikasiin pake tangan juga ga begitu belepotan.

Daily Make Up

- Citra Greentea Facial Moisturizer Cream

Gue gatau kenapa gue pilih produk ini sebenernya, cuman waktu itu gw mikir kayaknya kalo muka langsung dipakein sunscreen ga banget deh, harus ada alasnya wkwk. Dan bner, moisturizer ini ngebantu muka gw biar lebih alus dan lembab sebelum dipakein make up. Oh iya, gw piih yang greentea soalnya ada embel2 buat jerawat wkwk, wanginya juga enak.

- Wardah BB Cream Shade Medium

Gue suka BB cream ini, soalnya teksturnya ga berat, trus coveragenya kalo menurut gue ya medium. But it  still looks okay. Pertama banget gue salah beli yang shade nya light, alhasil muka gue kaya topeng monyet. Kalo keringetan, keliatan banget pudarnya :( huft akhirnya gue beli yang medium deh.

- Biore UV Aqua Rich

Gue liat sih review dari produk ini bagus-bagus ya. Dulu juga gue pake sunscreen tapi alhasil bikin muka gw keliatan shiny gitu (brtminyak) akhirnya gue stop pake sunscreen, dann.. muka gue jadi kusam gara gara ga pake sunscreen. Setelah gue liat review Biore ini, akhirnya gue beli kan tuh, pas gue pake, wow, telsturnya bener bener ringan dan gak bikin gue berminyak. Sukaa!

- Pensil alis Viva/Sari Ayu warna hita,

Gue gak muluk muluk kalo buat pensil alis, peruma mahal-mahal tapi kalo ga bisa makenya buat apa :') harganya juga murah sekitar 20-30 ribu kok. Gue bukan tipe orang yg make alis tebel-tebel banget, makanya kalo pake Viva/Sari Ayu itu buat gue jadi kelihatan lebih natural.

- Mascara Maybelline Magum Volum' Express

Untungnya, maskara ini lumayan waterproof jadi gue gausah re-apply lagi kalo abis solat. Kalo menurut gw, minusnya sih, maskara ini bulunya terlalu besar, jadi kalo gue aplikasiin ke bulu mata kadang suka belepotan ke kelopak mata, jadi harus hati-hati.

- Wardah Lip Cream Shade 14 dan 17

Gue suka wardah ii soalnya lumayan lama tahan di bibir, abis gue makan pun masih utuh warnanya. Dan juga, ga berat di bibir gue.  Harganya pun juga begitu mahal dan  gampang ditemuin di drugstore. Gue suka packagingnya, simpel.

Parfum

- Victoria Secret Coconut Passion Body Mist
Pertama kali cobain bau dari Coconut Passion ini, wooooowww, gue berasa melayang haha. Enak banget, bener bener bau vanilla atogak kaya kue yang baru mateng dari oven. Bener bener bau yg bisa bikin orang ngomong 'bau apaan sih ini? enak banget!' gitu kwkwk.

Body Care

- Purbasari Whitening Body Scrub Bengkoang

Kalo liburan gue hampir tiap hari luluran, soalnya akhir taun kemaren badan gue sempet gosong gara gara pergi ke pantai. Akhirnya liburan ini gue memutuskan buat bener-bener ngembaliin warna kulit gue seperti semula, yaitu pake lulur Purbasari ini.

- Herocyn

Karena gue punya masalah biang keringet sejak kecil, gue harus pake Herocyn ini tiap abis mandi. Fungsinya buat meredakan bintik merah di punggung gue. Sebenernya gak gatel tapi gue cuma pengen ngurangin aja. Kalo pake Herocyn ini, rasanya punggung kita ajdi dingin dingin gimana gitu. 

- Vaseline Handbody Coco Radiant

Dari dulu Vaseline emang handbody favorit gue soalnya efek ga bikin keringnya tuh ga tahan lama, dan gampang meresap ke kulit. Plus, mereka punya wangi cocoa ini yang rasanya pengen gue makan dariapda diolesin ke kulit. :'D

Segitu aja produk yang gue [ake sehari-hari, semoga bermanfaat buat kalian yaa. See you :)

Bali

Bali, absolutely, I owe so much memories in Bali, last November. I got excited too much, even I forgot behind all the happiness that I might get, there is a sadness awaited me.

Sometimes, I wish I didn't plan for a trip to Bali. Therefore, you wouldn't get a chance  to cheated on me. If I didnt go to Bali, we would still talk normally as a lover. If I didnt go to Bali, we would still love each other.

Bali, is too beautiful, yet too painful to be remembered by me. One side, all those memories always running around my mind, about the beautiful places I wish I could visit only with you. But behind it all, you sneaked out from me while we didnt have much chance to talk to each other.

Bali, I should be happy while remembering you, but for me, you are too painful to be remembered.

Virgoun - Surat Cinta Untuk Starla

Ku tuliskan kenangan tentang
Caraku menemukan dirimu
Tentang apa yang membuatku mudah
Berikan hatiku padamu

Takkan habis sejuta lagu
Untuk menceritakan cantikmu
'kan teramat panjang puisi
'tuk menyuratkan cinta ini

Telah habis sudah cinta ini
Tak lagi tersisa untuk dunia
Karena telah ku habiskan
Sisa cintaku hanya untukmu

Aku pernah berpikir tentang
Hidupku tanpa ada dirimu
Dapatkah lebih indah dari
Yang ku jalani sampai kini

Aku selalu bermimpi tentang
Indah hari tua bersamamu
Tetap cantik rambut panjangmu
Meskipun nanti tak hitam lagi

Bila habis sudah waktu ini
Tak lagi berpijak pada dunia
Telah aku habiskan sisa hidupku
Hanya untukmu

Dan telah habis sudah cinta ini
Tak lagi tersisa untuk dunia
Karena telah ku habiskan sisa cintaku
Hanya untukmu
Untukmu, hidup dan matiku

Bila musim berganti
Sampai waktu terhenti
Walau dunia membenci
Ku kan tetap di sini

Bila habis sudah waktu ini
Tak lagi berpijak pada dunia
Telah aku habiskan sisa hidupku
Hanya untukmu

Telah habis sudah cinta ini
Tak lagi tersisa untuk dunia
Karena telah ku habiskan sisa cintaku
Hanya untukmu

Karena telah ku habiskan sisa cintaku
Hanya untukmu

Dunia emang lucu. Manusia kadang juga lucu kok. Kadang, manusia tuh jago banget bohongin diri sendiri. Kadang manusia suka ga yakin apa yang dia jalanin tapi masih aja diterusin. Udah tau endingnya bakal kayak gimana, tapi enggan menolak atau memutuskan apa yg udah dilakuin. Dipertahanin gitu aja. Sampe akhirnya, mungkin Tuhan marah, seakan akan dia bilang, 'kayaknya harus gue buktiin nih kalo apa yang lo lakuin tuh salah'.

Kalo Tuhan udah ngomong begitu, mau dikata apa? Manusia bisa apa? 

Sekuat-kuatnya manusia berusaha, kalo Tuhan bilang enggak, ya gak akan terlaksana.. lucunya lagi manusia suka mikir, 'ah gak mungkin, ini udah pasti yang terbaik buat gue' tanpa mikirin efek sampingnya.

Setelah itu, Tuhan buktiin semuanya. Kalo apa yang kita lakuin salah, melawan takdir. Seakan akan, alam semesta pun mentertawakan kita, seolah-olah mereka pun berkata 'rasain lo'.

Rocket Rockers - Ingin Hilang Ingatan

Menghilanglah dari kehidupanku
enyanhlah dari hati yg tlah hancur
kehadiran sosokmu kan menyiksaku
biarkan disini ku menyendiri

Pergilah bersamanya disana
dengan dia yg ada segalanya
bersenang-senanglah sepuasanya
biarkan disini ku menyendiri

Terlintas keinginan tuk dapat
hilang ingatan agar semua terlupakan
dan ku berlari sekencang-kencangnya
tuk melupakan mu yg tlah berpaling

Disini,Kembali
kau hadirkan ingatan yg seharusnya kulupakan
Dan kuhancurkan adanya...
Disini,Kembali
kau hadirkan ingatan yg seharusnya kulupakan
Dan kuhancurkan adanya.....

Letih disini...
kuingin hilang ingatan
Letih Disini.....
kuingin hilang ingatan

Hot Chelle Rae - Why Don't You Love me (ft. Demi Lovato)

See I can't wake up I'm living a nightmare
That keeps playing over again
Locked in a room so hung up on you
And you're cool with just being friends

Left on the sidelines
Stuck at a red light
Waiting for my time
And I can't see

Why don't you love me
Touch me, tell me I'm your everything
The air you breathe
And why don't you love me, baby
Open up your heart tonight
'cause I could be all that you need
Why don't you love me
Why don't you love me

See I'm just too scared to tell you the truth
Cause my heart ache can't take anymore
Broken and bruised longing for you
And I don't know what I'm waiting for

Left on the sidelines
Stuck at a red light
Waiting for my time
So just tell me

Why don't you love me
Touch me, tell me I'm your everything
The air you breathe
And why don't you love me, baby
Open up your heart tonight
I could be all that you need
Why don't you love me
Why don't you love me

Why don't you give me a reason
Please tell me the truth
You know that I'll keep believing
Till I'm with you

Why don't you love me
Kiss me, I could feel your heart tonight
It's killing me so
Why don't you love me
Touch me, tell me I'm your everything
The air you breathe
And why don't you love me, baby
Open up your heart tonight
I could be all that you need

Why don't you love me
Why don't you love me
Why don't you love me?

Air Supply - Goodbye

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but good-bye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say good-bye

Sheila On 7 - Lapang Dada

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Karena semua semua tak lagi sama

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Kau harus bisa bisa berlapang dada

Kau harus bisa bisa ambil hikmahnya

Karena semua semua tak lagi sama

Walau kau tahu dia pun merasakannya

Aaaa aaa...

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Kau tahu kau tahu

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Kenapa kembali ku mengingatmu

Seperti aku bisa merasakan

Getaran jantung dan langkah kakimu

Kemana ini akan membawaku

Kau harus bisa bisa berlapang dada

Kau harus bisa bisa ambil hikmahnya

Karena semua semua tak lagi sama

Walau kau tahu dia pun merasakannya

Aaaa aaa...

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Seperti ku mendengar kau bernyanyi

Kau tahu kau tahu

Rasaku juga rasamu

Kau harus bisa bisa berlapang dada
Kau harus bisa bisa ambil hikmahnya

Karena semua semua tak lagi sama

Walau kau tahu dia pun merasakannya
Kemana ini akan membawaku
Aku takkan pernah tahu

Kau harus bisa bisa berlapang dada
Kau harus bisa bisa ambil hikmahnya

Karena semua semua tak lagi sama

Walau kau tahu dia pun merasakannya

Na na na na na na...

Na na na na na na...

Na na na na na na...

Na na na na na na...

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Sheila On 7 - Betapa

Seminggu setelah kau pergi
Teman silih berganti
Menghiburku

Berkata semua teratasi
Dan terus sembunyi
Di balik senyum palsu
Ku dengar dirimu
Tak sendiri lagi

Betapa hancurnya
Hati dan jiwaku
*)
Setahun setelah kau pergi
Ku masih sembunyi
Di balik senyum palsu
Ku dengar dirimu
Tak sendiri lagi

Haaaaa...
Betapa hancurnya
Haaaaa...
Hati dan jiwaku

Na na naaa aahh

Setahun setelah kau pergi
Ku masih sembunyi
Di balik senyum palsu
Ku dengar dirimu
Tak sendiri lagi

Haaaaa...
Betapa hancurnya
Haaaaa...
Hati dan jiwaku
Betapa hancurnya

Tolong bantu aku
Melewati semua

I absolutely the dumbest person in the world.

I wasted almost 2 years of my life of trusting the worng person. I have no idea what I did wrong to you. I never cheat on somebody. Even we were apart like 10.000 km away. I dont understand how could you be so cruel to me. I never imagine you did such thing to me. But im not surprised anymore. I realized cheating is only done by cheap people therefore you are a f*cking cheap man. Karma will hit you soon as possible. If it doesnt, then I fucking will even without touching you.

Im hurt because you threaten me. How could you be fucking sweet to me like nothing happened between us. Amnesia much? Youre such an asshole. How could you do that meanwhile you are seeking for another girl. How could you? 

Im sure you dont deserve anyone. You might have a crush or getting close to someone, but it won't change the way you are, no one would ever want you in their life. Youre a central hot mess, a f*cking disaster. Nobody would ever want you. Ever. A hypocrite like you, would never learn anything. A hypocrite like you, would never change. You have lost your mind nowhere. I hope that you continue your miserable life, and I am glad that my role in your mess life is over. And its not my problem if you getting more miserable than ever. What goes around, comes around.

Bulan Dikekang Malam - Rossa

andaikan kabut tak menyulam hari
hingga berlarut larut
andaikan hidup ada harapan
mencintaimu sebagai bagian terindah dihidupku
tak kubiarkan kau tak bahagia
berjuta fatwa cinta yang ada
mengantarku pada kenyataan
hatiku memeluk bayang - bayang
ingin denganmu tapi tak bisa

aku bukan aku yang dulu
namun cintaku seperti dulu
merelakanmu aku merasa
bagai bulan di kekang malam

andaikan kabut tak menyulam hari
hingga berlarut larut
andaikan hidup ada harapan
mencintaimu sebagai bagian terindah dihidupku
tak kubiarkan kau tak bahagia
berjuta fatwa cinta yang ada
mengantarku pada kenyataan
hatiku memeluk bayang - bayang
ingin denganmu tapi tak bisa

aku bukan aku yang dulu
namun cintaku seperti dulu
merelakanmu aku merasa
bagai bulan di kekang malam

aku ikhlaskan segalanya
walau cintaku lebam membiru
sakit namun aku bahagia
ku terima sgala takdir cinta