Nothing - The Script

Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying, trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many, I know that I'm never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
They all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
So I dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing

So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if I faced her face, that she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
So I dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing (nothing, nothing)

She said nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Oh, sometimes love's intoxicating
Oh, you're coming down, your hands are shaking
When you realize, there's no one waiting

Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
So I dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing (nothing, nothing)

She said nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
I got nothing (nothing, nothing)
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing)

Nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing

For my old crush whom I never had a chance to admit my feelings

Dear my old crush,

How are you? Its been a while since the last time I saw you in high school. Honestly I am pretty shy to admit this. But high school was the place where the first time I saw you, as my junior.

I dont really remember in what date, but the first time I saw you like when I was in 11th garde, meanwhile you were still in a freshman year. I know. I was familiar with your face bcs basically we were in the same elementary school too, but then I would never think you will enroll into the same highschool as me. I remember you were pretty popular in elementary school bcs youre mixed:)) hihi. And now, you were here.

I never had a crush on someone who is younger than me before, so you probably the first one. You may not remember me or even my name. But I remember we joined the same student council. In first year,  I know, slightly you became famous because I have to admit this, you are very attractive. Wuth your braces on (in that time, lol). Eventhough I never had a chance to talk to you, I know you are a good person and I know you have a good personality. Not only outside but from inside too.

I remember that all of popular students on my batch also used to talk to you. Especially during the student orientation, whoah.. During that week I feel like, emotionally tortured maybe? Bcs I had no one to talk to in that week, probably bcs I dont talk to those ppopular students on my batch either. You were very talktative, polite, and incredibly smart. I observed you.

Thats pretty much stuffs I like about you, I mean, I really liked you. You were the ideal one. Youre not only attractive from outside, but also from inside. I know you really love your parents, I know you would do anything for them. And I know I was not the only girl who had crush on you, probably bunches...

I was dying to get any of your contact, BBM, twitter. But I had your BBM pin so I encouraged myself to add yours. I didn't expect that you would accepted me. I was pretty aware about yuor updates. Once I realized one of your friend pranked you, sending a broadcast message, which is written 'I actually like you for quite long time' Heck I thought it was real! Hahahah..

I knew you dated some girls (probably) during in high school, I also realized when you joined the model agency. Actually you really amazed me with your achievement. So I also knew that you were surrounded by alot of girls in hat model agency, which make me unconfident.. I mean who the heck am I, I was really nothing. I wasnt popular, people barely know/talk to me. I wasnt that smart, tho.

And I remember the first time I talked to you, was the day that I was being a servant in high school canteen, you bought a fried rice. And the second time was during the student orientation, you ask me something (honestly I forgot about what it was), but then I stupidly answered with 'I dont really know about that' in our school's basketball court. And thats all.

And yeah, I was falling for you as my crush for about 2 years. I just wished you know about my feelings towards you. I just want you to know because I realized youre in 2 years relationship with your girlfriend. I wish I had a courage to talk to you as normal friends. I wish, I was confident enough about myself, I wish I was being an open person to everyone.

Thats all I wanted to say to you, I am sorry if im being pretty cheesy, hihi. Goodluck for your life, I really admire you as a human being, I am really amazed on how you achieved all your achievement, and I adore your personality. Up till now.

GK.

David Archuleta - Touch My Hand

Saw you from the distance
Saw you from the stage
Something 'bout the look in your eyes
Something 'bout your beautiful face
In a sea of people
There was only you
I never knew what this song was about
But suddenly now I do

Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again

I see the sparkle of a million flashlights
I wonder why all the stars
But the one that's shining out so bright
Is the one right where you are

Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again

Saw you from the distance
Saw you from the stage
Something 'bout the look in your eyes
Something 'bout your beautiful face,

Can't let the music stop
Can't let this feeling end
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never see you again

Can't let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
'Cause if I do it'll all be over
I'll never get the chance again
I'll never get the chance again

Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand (I'll never get the chance again)
Reach out as far as you can (I'll never get the chance again)
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you
Touch my hand
Yeah, yeah

Skin Care/Beauty Product List

Hi guys, kali ini gue bakal ceritain apa aja skincare/beauty prodcut yg gue pake sehari-hari. jadi Sebenernya gue cuma pake produk dari drugstrore sih rata-rata, jarang banget pake produk yg high-end gitu, maklum gue masih mahasiswa.

Terus, gue juga baru ake produk-produk ini selama setahun terakhir gitu, kalo beberapa semester lalu pake sih tapi paling ya ga sebanyak sekarang soalnya gue males, hehe. Tahun ini gue berusaha mejadi 'cewek' lagi. Cussss~

Masker/Scrub

- St. Ives Apricott Scrub Blemish Control (Travel Size)

Ini juga baru gue coba seminggu terakhir, soalnya gue negrasa muka gue kusem banget (plus gue ga suka makan sayur+olah raga). Trus gue baru mikir gitu, ih kusem banget ya muka gue. Dulu sempet pake scrub yang lain tp ga begitu ngaruh di gue. Nah abos itu gue search aja kan produk yg bisa dipake untuk mengurangi kekusaman di kulit, dan nemulah gue  si St. Ives ini. First impression gue sih, abis kita pake, bener bener ajdi alus kulit kita, Trus butiran pasirnya emang rada gede-gede jadi kalo di gue rada sakit gitu. Tapi itulah soalnya St. Ives ini buat deep cleansing gitu kan, jadi gue ga masalah. Oiaya, gue beli yang travel size soalnya gue baru pertama kali nyoba, takut ga cocok apa gimana gitu. Seminggu leh sergue pake 3-4 kali, gaboleh sering2 soalnya nanti kulitnya kering.

- Freeman Lemon and Mint Mask

Sebenernya sih ini bukan punya gw, aslinya punya adek gw, tapi karena dia ga cocok yaudah deh buat gue aja. Kenapa kita pilih yg lemon? Soalnya kalo yg gue baca sih bisa ngempesin/meredakan jerawat gitu. Nah pas bgt muka gue ada bekas jerawat. Baunya enaaaak bgt, seger parah, pas diaplikasiin ke muka jadi kalem bawaannya. Teksturnya juga kaya clay mask yg rada lengket gitu, ga cair kaya krim, jadi kalo diaplikasiin pake tangan juga ga begitu belepotan.

Daily Make Up

- Citra Greentea Facial Moisturizer Cream

Gue gatau kenapa gue pilih produk ini sebenernya, cuman waktu itu gw mikir kayaknya kalo muka langsung dipakein sunscreen ga banget deh, harus ada alasnya wkwk. Dan bner, moisturizer ini ngebantu muka gw biar lebih alus dan lembab sebelum dipakein make up. Oh iya, gw piih yang greentea soalnya ada embel2 buat jerawat wkwk, wanginya juga enak.

- Wardah BB Cream Shade Medium

Gue suka BB cream ini, soalnya teksturnya ga berat, trus coveragenya kalo menurut gue ya medium. But it  still looks okay. Pertama banget gue salah beli yang shade nya light, alhasil muka gue kaya topeng monyet. Kalo keringetan, keliatan banget pudarnya :( huft akhirnya gue beli yang medium deh.

- Biore UV Aqua Rich

Gue liat sih review dari produk ini bagus-bagus ya. Dulu juga gue pake sunscreen tapi alhasil bikin muka gw keliatan shiny gitu (brtminyak) akhirnya gue stop pake sunscreen, dann.. muka gue jadi kusam gara gara ga pake sunscreen. Setelah gue liat review Biore ini, akhirnya gue beli kan tuh, pas gue pake, wow, telsturnya bener bener ringan dan gak bikin gue berminyak. Sukaa!

- Pensil alis Viva/Sari Ayu warna hita,

Gue gak muluk muluk kalo buat pensil alis, peruma mahal-mahal tapi kalo ga bisa makenya buat apa :') harganya juga murah sekitar 20-30 ribu kok. Gue bukan tipe orang yg make alis tebel-tebel banget, makanya kalo pake Viva/Sari Ayu itu buat gue jadi kelihatan lebih natural.

- Mascara Maybelline Magum Volum' Express

Untungnya, maskara ini lumayan waterproof jadi gue gausah re-apply lagi kalo abis solat. Kalo menurut gw, minusnya sih, maskara ini bulunya terlalu besar, jadi kalo gue aplikasiin ke bulu mata kadang suka belepotan ke kelopak mata, jadi harus hati-hati.

- Wardah Lip Cream Shade 14 dan 17

Gue suka wardah ii soalnya lumayan lama tahan di bibir, abis gue makan pun masih utuh warnanya. Dan juga, ga berat di bibir gue.  Harganya pun juga begitu mahal dan  gampang ditemuin di drugstore. Gue suka packagingnya, simpel.

Parfum

- Victoria Secret Coconut Passion Body Mist
Pertama kali cobain bau dari Coconut Passion ini, wooooowww, gue berasa melayang haha. Enak banget, bener bener bau vanilla atogak kaya kue yang baru mateng dari oven. Bener bener bau yg bisa bikin orang ngomong 'bau apaan sih ini? enak banget!' gitu kwkwk.

Body Care

- Purbasari Whitening Body Scrub Bengkoang

Kalo liburan gue hampir tiap hari luluran, soalnya akhir taun kemaren badan gue sempet gosong gara gara pergi ke pantai. Akhirnya liburan ini gue memutuskan buat bener-bener ngembaliin warna kulit gue seperti semula, yaitu pake lulur Purbasari ini.

- Herocyn

Karena gue punya masalah biang keringet sejak kecil, gue harus pake Herocyn ini tiap abis mandi. Fungsinya buat meredakan bintik merah di punggung gue. Sebenernya gak gatel tapi gue cuma pengen ngurangin aja. Kalo pake Herocyn ini, rasanya punggung kita ajdi dingin dingin gimana gitu. 

- Vaseline Handbody Coco Radiant

Dari dulu Vaseline emang handbody favorit gue soalnya efek ga bikin keringnya tuh ga tahan lama, dan gampang meresap ke kulit. Plus, mereka punya wangi cocoa ini yang rasanya pengen gue makan dariapda diolesin ke kulit. :'D

Segitu aja produk yang gue [ake sehari-hari, semoga bermanfaat buat kalian yaa. See you :)

Bali

Bali, absolutely, I owe so much memories in Bali, last November. I got excited too much, even I forgot behind all the happiness that I might get, there is a sadness awaited me.

Sometimes, I wish I didn't plan for a trip to Bali. Therefore, you wouldn't get a chance  to cheated on me. If I didnt go to Bali, we would still talk normally as a lover. If I didnt go to Bali, we would still love each other.

Bali, is too beautiful, yet too painful to be remembered by me. One side, all those memories always running around my mind, about the beautiful places I wish I could visit only with you. But behind it all, you sneaked out from me while we didnt have much chance to talk to each other.

Bali, I should be happy while remembering you, but for me, you are too painful to be remembered.

Virgoun - Surat Cinta Untuk Starla

Ku tuliskan kenangan tentang
Caraku menemukan dirimu
Tentang apa yang membuatku mudah
Berikan hatiku padamu

Takkan habis sejuta lagu
Untuk menceritakan cantikmu
'kan teramat panjang puisi
'tuk menyuratkan cinta ini

Telah habis sudah cinta ini
Tak lagi tersisa untuk dunia
Karena telah ku habiskan
Sisa cintaku hanya untukmu

Aku pernah berpikir tentang
Hidupku tanpa ada dirimu
Dapatkah lebih indah dari
Yang ku jalani sampai kini

Aku selalu bermimpi tentang
Indah hari tua bersamamu
Tetap cantik rambut panjangmu
Meskipun nanti tak hitam lagi

Bila habis sudah waktu ini
Tak lagi berpijak pada dunia
Telah aku habiskan sisa hidupku
Hanya untukmu

Dan telah habis sudah cinta ini
Tak lagi tersisa untuk dunia
Karena telah ku habiskan sisa cintaku
Hanya untukmu
Untukmu, hidup dan matiku

Bila musim berganti
Sampai waktu terhenti
Walau dunia membenci
Ku kan tetap di sini

Bila habis sudah waktu ini
Tak lagi berpijak pada dunia
Telah aku habiskan sisa hidupku
Hanya untukmu

Telah habis sudah cinta ini
Tak lagi tersisa untuk dunia
Karena telah ku habiskan sisa cintaku
Hanya untukmu

Karena telah ku habiskan sisa cintaku
Hanya untukmu

Dunia emang lucu. Manusia kadang juga lucu kok. Kadang, manusia tuh jago banget bohongin diri sendiri. Kadang manusia suka ga yakin apa yang dia jalanin tapi masih aja diterusin. Udah tau endingnya bakal kayak gimana, tapi enggan menolak atau memutuskan apa yg udah dilakuin. Dipertahanin gitu aja. Sampe akhirnya, mungkin Tuhan marah, seakan akan dia bilang, 'kayaknya harus gue buktiin nih kalo apa yang lo lakuin tuh salah'.

Kalo Tuhan udah ngomong begitu, mau dikata apa? Manusia bisa apa? 

Sekuat-kuatnya manusia berusaha, kalo Tuhan bilang enggak, ya gak akan terlaksana.. lucunya lagi manusia suka mikir, 'ah gak mungkin, ini udah pasti yang terbaik buat gue' tanpa mikirin efek sampingnya.

Setelah itu, Tuhan buktiin semuanya. Kalo apa yang kita lakuin salah, melawan takdir. Seakan akan, alam semesta pun mentertawakan kita, seolah-olah mereka pun berkata 'rasain lo'.